Spring is here!

I am so excited that warmer weather has finally arrived!!

It really lifts my spirits when you don't need to bundle everyone up to go outside for 10 minutes! Keith and I went for a nice walk on Saturday and on Sunday he played outside in the dirt and stones for a couple of hours.

I LOVE SPRING! :-)

better days

I had an appointment last Friday with my doctor. The way I was feeling was getting out of hand. God love this woman, she's wonderful. She came into the exam room, handed me a box of tissues and said "talk to me." We had a long talk and she gave me a Rx for an anti-depressant and told me to take some time for myself! (when? I ask. LOL) So I'm looking forward to better days. I'm still broke and Brian still doesn't have a job but we'll manage somehow.

The boys are doing great. Keith is learning about time in school. He is fascinated! We had bought him a watch a long time ago but he didn't care anything about it until now. So we found it and he's been wearing it all week, even to bed. LOL! Last night, he wanted to know what time he has to get up in the mornings so he knew by looking at his watch that it was time to get up. I told him we'd get an alarm clock for him sometime and then we remembered we had an old one in the closet so we dug that out and put in his room with the alarm set to wake him up. He thought that was the coolest thing! And this morning, it went off, he turned it off and came right out and got ready for school. He's been doing REALLY well again getting ready in the mornings. There were a couple of mornings it was a fight again and I was really worried that it would continue but it hasn't.

Caleb is talking so much now. And talk about funny.....that kid cracks me up. But man, has he got an attitude! He still goes to daycare two days a week, at least for now. I hope we can keep him there those two days even if Brian doesn't find work right away. Caleb gets to watch WAY too much TV on the three days he's home with Daddy.

Now if I could just get Brian and Keith to get along. Oh my God, those two drive me nuts. They fight and bicker over EVERYTHING! I keep telling Brian that he's the adult and needs to start acting it but apparantly he's not listening. He is on Keith's ass for something all the time. I hope they both mellow as Keith gets older or they aren't going to have a very good relationship, I'm afraid.

the good, the bad and the ugly

The good:

• I have a home
• I have a job
• I have two healthy children
• I am relatively healthy
• I have a decent husband
• My parents are both alive and well
• I have a few friends

The bad:

• As of Sunday, my husband no longer has a job
• My oldest child is a major challenge
• The exhaust is falling off my car
• The 4 wheel drive in my car is not working properly
• I'm broke..........again.
• Keith has been invited to classmates birthday parties and he can't go because I can't afford to buy gifts and it makes me feel like a HORRIBLE mother.

The ugly:

• My face is broke out like a 13 year olds
• I have gained 10-12 pounds and feel like a fat fucking cow
• I feel like a lunatic most days.